Updated: Aug 8, 2021
The more I know, the more I realise I know nothing. Socrates
I was always an odd child.
My curiosity was in nature, God, Cosmos, church, spirituality, lobbying for human rights, indigenous people (Canada) emigrants to Canada, ( I adopted an Afghani family for a year) and at one point during my early teens I took on the KKK by designing t-shirts and selling them in Kensington Market, Toronto.
Did I mention I was an odd child?
I would eventually swap my childhood dream of becoming a minister for a life that would let me travel the world studying the meaning of life.
I needed to know stuff.
I needed to understand the purpose of pain and suffering and why business owners fail.
Why we're here and what God was.
After a lifetime exploring human behaviour, Jung, Osho, Demartini, Sufism, philosophy, pain, suffering and why we do what we do, I came face to face with a cold truth circa 2014.
The beliefs I held were at best, half truths.
That hurt - as I had been so certain.
I had studied so much,
attended seminars, workshops and personal development courses for nearly 20 years
Only to become so absolute and rigid in my thinking - my next step was to start the unlearning process.
Letting those beliefs go challenged my need for control
and my need for speed,
and my need to be right.
If at first you don't succeed....
In 2020/2021 - All those facts that I had just come to understand and embrace, fell away (again) to make room for a new set of facts I had yet to discover. (That's an Emerson quote from his essay on circles - I just tweaked it as it absolutely applied to me in real life)
This cycle of unlearning and relearning was back and I felt less able for it.
You'd think I would have copped on to the system after 45 goes. Hah!
It was inside a WhatsApp call with my dad in April 2021, where #InsideGrowth would make its appearance.
Dads seem to have this access to wisdom and sight along with an ease at being able connect dots - finding the gem inside all your frustration and scattered thoughts.
Dad's idea was simple
"Distill your ideas into themes and see if anyone else wants to wade in on those topics with you - keep them open ended so there's lots of room for growth and other people's experiences and welcome their pushback. If you seek out the unlearning - own it, get in front of it - then you unlearn by design. It will probably feel better."
It helped that I had an online vehicle already in use in my business world. Repurposing it for this would be a doddle. So that's exactly what I did.
Inside Growth is the inside-you-kind-of-growth that yields more flow, less force.
It's an open research project that has no end. And it's one where I choose to go into it looking to unlearn, relearn and learn.
If there's a topic or three in here that takes your interest - perhaps we should connect. My details are at the bottom of this page.
Special mention to my dad, Ken Eastman - love and gratitude for you and your genius. <3